Being Held Prisoner

Since not being in school for 2 months all I have been feeling is depression and being held captive against my will. And since work hasn't really given me exactly a lot of hours.. I really feel like I can't escape.  My parents are the kind that think if you aren't currently in school you're dumb and don't have a future. They're strict and heartless when it comes to my happiness. Of course no one sees this side of them because they do it behind closed bars..like cruel police guards in a prison. They lock you in and every day they tell you about how stupid you are for not doing anything with your life. They give you your meals each day and ignore you like if you're invisible and then crush your dreams every day.

I have been told by them and by my doctor....my doctor people.. that my dream is nothing but a figment of my imagination. That it is so far fetched for this kind of economy. WELL FUCK THE ECONOMY AND SOCIETY'S BELIEFS OF WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY. They think that to be successful I need to have my own clothing line like Michael Kors and being extremely rich that I use $100 as my toilet paper. That's not even remotely close to what my dream is.. I want my own clothing line yes.. but I also want to bring those clothes to people that wear nothing but second hand clothing for years and years. I want to have my own clothing line to restore happiness in even the poorest of people. I want to open my own boutique and be happy with my life and yeah if it so happened to get a little more fame than I envisioned then why not?

..But you know what's really fucked up.. like any parent all they care about is their child being a doctor or a nurse so they can make bank and drive a fucking lambo to work. Let me ask all the young adults out there....is that what you want to do? Will that make you happy when your dream has nothing to do with the medical field? Or are we just falling to dictatorship by the 2 people that are supposed to support our dream? I want to do what makes me happy but it's hard when my parents are constantly telling me to make a life decision by the end of today or I'm going back to the hell of the community college I was at. What bugs me the most is that they honestly don't care about WHAT I WANT.. they don't care about my happiness and that's the truth of it or else they wouldn't threaten me everyday of my life. They never asked me how I felt while in college..they didn't care.. but once my brother came in the page they acted like parents of a child that just won an Oscar. I was in my own hell and my parents couldnt've cared less.

I want to move out of this house because it seriously is unhealthy for me, but I just can't escape. 

I have this poster in my room of a Walt Disney quote that reads, "If You Can Dream It, You Can Do It." I want to follow my dreams but it's hard when everyone keeps knocking me down. My friends are obviously supppper supportive of my dream but it's incredibly hard to just up and do that when .. I actually can't do it. I don't have money, I don't have an escape route... and I need help. I'm being held prisoner.......