YOU LOOK DISGUSTING

**Sorry this wasn't posted yesterday! I was recovering from an overnight shift at work all day!**

I have been struggling with acne since I was around 7th or 8th grade, so growing up around cruel "perfect-skinned" teenagers was the worst for me personally. In fact 7th-11th grade were the worst years of my life. I was just so self-concious and I didn't ever want to hangout with friends or join any school clubs because I didn't want anyone to see my face longer than they could have. Your face is the only thing you can't see without a mirror, so walking around the halls with a face full of zits thinking that everyone is staring and judging you would literally eat up my mind. And at the time I didn't really know too much about makeup or the proper techniques of applying foundation or concealer so I did what I thought I knew what to do and once I got home I immediately took it off to let my skin breathe.



Having acne was probably the 2nd most reason as to why I've been secretly depressed for a few years of my life. It made me very socially awkward and as I said, self conscious of myself 24/7. Makeup has always been my comfort zone through the years though, because not only can I make people realize how beautiful I can be, but so that I can feel more confident going into public. I didn't do it to impress anyone... I simply did it to make people see past the flaws and pay attention to my ideas, my thoughts and my heart. SO what am I trying to get at here?.... Well have you watched the video .."You Look Disgusting"?? NO?! Well then you have too and you'll understand partially of what I was afraid of to make my story public...







People have different struggles..different flaws that you don't know what they go through. You're not telling them anything new. People with acne know they aren't the prettiest. They know...they FEEL disgusting on their own, without your ignorant 2 cents. You know my mother always said, "If you have nothing nice to say, don't say it at all." Because you really don't know what people are on the verge of breaking down or giving up. So it's about time someone made it public.. and you know what. Having the right people in my life to motivate me and make me feel like I'm worth something, has made me love myself and all my flaws. Each day that comes along, I become more optimistic and more confident. Sure I have my "I feel ugly" days, but I've learned to come to peace with some things I can't necessarily change. And you know what that's the beauty of makeup; for when I have those "ugly days" I can give myself a little pick-me-up..cause I'm not of the legal drinking age quite yet..to give me a confidence booster. And even then, I don't usually wear full coverage makeup. I like it when you can see some of my scars pop out. It just reminds me that it could be worse, like I had it a few years ago.



So be nice to people, you never know what they're going through... think about how what you're about to say might effect that person. Chances are that if you wouldn't say it to yourself or your favorite person in the world, then you shouldn't say it to a person you know nothing about. I give that girl and every girl who has acne or scarring or any other flaws on their faces so much credit for going online and making it okay to be yourself. I know it took me a while to come to terms with myself, at least now I don't feel alone.