College......

  In the Fall of 2013, I am going to be venturing into life as a freshman in college.....if only I knew which college I was going to. Procrastination used to take up my entire life. I was so lazy and never wanted to do things when I had to do them. I did my college application for a University that my family planned on me attending since my older brother goes there. Not really my honest first choice in colleges, but I can deal with it I guess. My dream school is actually in Florida, but due to lack of money and the fact that I am not able to personally leave my family and baby brother for long amounts of time. So I settled for a college in-state.

   I planned to study Nutrition because I got inspired from a MTV show called, "I Used To Be Fat." It made me feel so deeply for these people going with that constant struggle with their weight, especially if they have gotten bullied for it. But then, my clothing and design class took a trip to FIT (Fashion Institute of Technology) in New York, and I instantly fell in love with it. I knew that that's where I wanted to be and that's where I belonged. I brought it up to my mom when I got home and she agreed I should apply... but time kept on ticking by and by the time I knew it, it was too late to apply. There goes my dreams.

  Since I still have yet to hear back from the University I applied to, I was forced to apply to a community college for at least the first year. It upsets me so much to have to wait months and months to hear back from one college. If you're not going to choose me to study in your school, then why keep me wondering for so long? Give me an answer now so I don't have to waste my time anxiously guessing what's going to happen.

  I'm super excited/nervous for college, but with everyone else that went to my high school already having their lives set and planned, it makes me lose hope for my own future. I want to be successful and I want to be happy with my life in the future, but right now, it seems so impossible to get there. I wish I knew what I was doing with my life, so I can be loyal to in and prioritize it, guess I'll have to just keep on waiting..