Today I had an appointment to get my birth control pills at 2:30pm. I didn't go to sleep until 10am..not even exaggerating. It was that stupid scary movie that permitted my mind from losing consciousness. Anyway, my mom had shown me texts between her and my father, and turns out my dad didn't want to hear one bit of it. He says he doesn't "agree" with this idea. Ok, so I know what I did and yeah maybe I could've waited for a couple more years to pass, but I didn't and there's no changing the past. I'm living in the present right now and I want to take responsibility for my actions so that something unexpected doesn't occur.
The part that hurts the most is that my dad won't even look at me, not even a glance, not even a corner of the eye look. Just goes right on past me as if I am invisible. He hasn't spoken to me in about 2 days and I'm still waiting for the long parent speech from him.. but he won't even give me that. I never wanted to hear a lecture so bad in my life from my dad, but if it means that in some way shape or form he is talking to me.. then I'll take it. It sucks because I just feel so neglected and mistreated. They have to let go sometime, I'm not always going to be the little girl pictured in their minds forever.
My mom, although knowing she hated me already, actually stood up for me.. partially.. but my dad wasn't for it at all. Instead he talked garbage about me and treated me as if I was some hooker 12 year old that's sleeping with the entire middle school. Honestly, I'm not even worried or too upset that my dads pretending that we aren't even related. I'm taking extra-precautions so that I don't end up knocked up. That's all I care about and that's all he should care about too.. if he really cared at all.
I start the pills on Sunday.. hope everything goes smooth sailing.. if anyone has any questions, please feel free to ask away! I'll give complete honest advice to everyone about this matter!
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