You Are My Inspiration

So since about 6th grade or so I have been watching Youtube videos. Didn't matter whose videos it was, as long as it was amusing I would watch it. It really made my day and made me feel like I sort of "belonged". Everyday I'd go home, do homework and watch beauty guru's or comedians and just feel straight at home. Even when my older brother would make fun of me and called me weird.. it hurt for about 2 minutes then I didn't really care after that. I would run to those videos to make me feel better and take away the pain of not feeling like I was "normal" like my brother wanted me to be. So for years I continued to watch these videos and then some. Then one day I really got inspired by these people.

 I had the idea of making videos of my own. However, the idea of doing it alone was fairly intimidating. So I partnered up with my cousin and then we were off with our wonderful new journey. Uhh.. well it didn't really go as planned. We got lazy and not really motivated. Although we made a couple of funny and inspiring videos, it pretty much ended there. With our lives moving on and my cousin living in another state it was impossible to keep our channel alive. It kind of crushed me because I wanted to convey my message and my inspiring ideas to everyone, just like people have done to me. But life must go on.

Come Christmas time of this year, we tried to get the inspiration back and we made a small Christmas video of us making a gingerbread house to spread the holiday spirit and a tour of my moms beautiful decorations. Buuttt, that never got downloaded due to being in the moment of the holiday. And so I waited.. patiently.

Now we fast forward to a few days ago. I finally caught the true motivation to start my own channel. I began about 3 weeks ago. My first series is a documentary of my acne curing process. I wanted that to be my first series because I watched other peoples videos and they really inspired me to not only take the accutane pill, but to document my process as well. I've never felt so comfortable making my own videos in my life. My first video was so re-assuring that this is what I really wanted to do so I continued to make more after that. I continue to vlog my process, but now I'm expanding my thought process and creating fashion videos and maybe even makeup videos later on.

Making my own channel and making my own videos is so self-fulfilling and I couldn't be happier with where I am at in life. I have never been so content with life, because I feel like everything is just going so right and I'm so grateful to be living the life I live. I hope that maybe I can inspire people out there to express themselves and do not listen to what other people have to say about you. You are your own person and you are absolutely amazing in every aspect. I love you guys! Please continue to be my muse!