My Bad Birthday Luck

In my family when I and my cousins were all young, birthday parties were a huge thing. All of or family members from different cities came and we always got a whole ton of presents. We were spoiled rotten..and of course as you get older you have to expect to get at least 1 pair of socks, a t-shirt, a gift card.. or just a plain card..with no money. Yeah it gets depressing. 

After going into double digits you start to realize how much worse birthday parties begin to get. Barely any family comes down to visit anymore, you get a card of $20 from your parents..or you pick out your own gifts because your family doesn't know what you like anymore. And that was my life up until my 16th birthday. I never thought of having a Sweet 16 because I just thought it was dumb, but after I went to my good friends Sweet 16 I thought it'd be fun to just have a good time with my friends. Until I realized I barely had any friends... It was the most dumbest idea I ever had, my mom got sick, the DJ was horrible, I was tired so I became emotional during my speech and all I wanted to do was go home. It was such a waste of money in my eyes; although I am appreciative that my parents tried to give me a sweet 16.. if I could take it back and not do it all I would have. 

After that bust of a party, it just kept rolling downhill. For my 17th birthday I was supposed to hangout with my friends..but they all bailed on me. So I sat on my bedroom floor crying my eyes out because it seemed like no one cared. The thing to lift my head up was my friend dropped by to give me a gift and it was a t-shirt of my favorite band. After that I sat back in my room and sat there literally doing nothing. It was about 10:30 at night when I texted my one friend I haven't talked to in a while, to go to the movies with me at least. We went and when the movie finished it was about midnight and we had school the next day but it meant a lot to me that she would stay up late with me to just go to the movies. 

My 18th birthday.. I helped clean my bf's car....they "surprised me" with a cake and a pair of shoes. Just 1 gift and it was one I picked out. My boyfriend promised to take me out on a shopping spree..that never happened and then I got blamed for holding him up to it. About 2 weeks later my family really surprised me with a party and some of my family members that I haven't seen in a long time. Only 1 friend came and my boyfriend was supposed to show up but we got in a fight about something early in the morning (before I knew it was a surprise birthday party) so he didn't show up. As for gifts, I got a little bit of money, hand-me-downs and a cute gift from my best friend. I was mad the whole time because my acne was in full-effect that day and because my boyfriend never showed up to even apologize to me. 

This year I really planned out to have an amazing birthday weekend with my boyfriend and my best friend and her boyfriend since her birthday is 3 days before mine. I was so excited to have this couples trip and just relax at one of my favorite places: Seaside Heights. As you can assume...my plans are failing and I'm just about ready to throw my hands up and just stay home and do nothing. My best friend can't make it, her boyfriend can't make it and my boyfriend can't take off of work. I'm so frustrated and upset because I finally had good, fun plans this year and my luck just fucking blows. 

Now I'm trying to plan to do it the weekend of my birthday week but I have a feeling that it's just going to be another dud again. I'm not keeping my expectations high this time because I don't want to get let down for yet another year. Just going to go by whatever happens happens. I would love for things to work out so that at least my boyfriend and I can go to have a good intimate weekend together and just relax on the boardwalk and the beach, but we'll see what happens.