Self-Harm Scars 

The past couple of months have been kind of rough for me. Going down a dark deep path that led me to hurt myself when I thought that stage of my life was over with already. It's something I never want anyone to go through and I'm usually the one to talk people out of it. But just like the saying goes, "I give other people advice, when I can't even take my own." Yup, that definitely applies to me. When I cut myself in the past it was something that would usually fade away in a weeks time, but since I made deeper cuts this time around..there's no hiding it. I've been waiting and moisturizing it to help it heal quicker. They have been fading little by little but it's been almost 2-3 weeks now since I've done it and they are still visible. 

More recently I have been applying my Glycolic acid cream that my dermatologist gave me for my acne scarring to the scars and it has been doing pretty well for the meantime. But I just want to give every person that is thinking about self-harming themselves a bit of a message through what I am currently going through. Don't hurt yourselves..I know the mindset and the reasoning for wanting to, but in the end you're still here and you're still alive. Just because you feel like nothing is going right currently in your life, doesn't mean with the rights friends, support system and the right motivation that you it won't get better. If you work hard on yourself and focus on making yourself happy first and foremost,  then you can continue to show that love and happiness to others. Therefore, creating a happier life. Trust me, when I look down at my scars I sense a feeling of growth and happiness. Yeah, those were hard times..but I made it. I'm here now. Time to turn my life around for the better and make the most out of this life while I still can. 

But it can also get frustrating..because well...how do you hid it? Yeah you can wear layers on top of layers or just long sleeve shirts all the time. But what happens when it's summer and you want to go to the beach. I mean sure you can embrace it as a hard time you got passed, but you know you're going to get those embarrassing judgements from people that might not know the struggle you overcame. It's so hard to get rid of, so avoid it altogether. But here are somethings that have been helping me fade my scars..

1) Glycolic Acid Cream (as previously mentioned)- this helps deep scarring and helps the skin feel and look younger.

2) Vitamin E Oil- again this oil is made to help the skin appear youthful and fade scarring and lighten up the appearance of the scars (I got mine at Walgreens).

3)Sugar Scrubs- When you have an exfoliating factors such as sugar, this helps to buff out the skin and leave the skin feeling smooth, This way it smooth out the cut marks to start to help the appearance of them seem lighter and less harsh looking. 

I recently researched a video to help my process speed up a bit and thought that this video was a great simple solution everyone can do : Get Rid of Self-Harm Scars. She shows fast simple steps with simple ingredients that take up little time to do. I tried this not too long ago actually and I can really see the scars lighten up a bit and although she used baking soda to lighten up the scars, the sugar works just as well. 

Like I said, it's better to avoid the temptation altogether because then you're going to end up with a bigger outcome than you bargained for. Meaning having the responsibility of covering it up or by explaining it to others that you haven't told. Like today, I have a doctor's appointment and I'm terrified because I'm pretty sure he's going to want to take blood and my scarring is still prominent. (BTW I haven't tried covering them up with makeup yet to recommend anything to everyone, I would just use a full coverage concealer like the Kat Von D one, or Hard Candy's "Glamoflauge" as a drug store alternative). 

Everyone is beautiful and it's not some cliche garbage that I'm meaninglessly saying to you. I'm saying, you have a purpose in this life and you need to prolong your life as much as possible to realize your full potential. I went through it all, I know the gist of the story, but take it from me..you're really not going to want to miss the better and brighter sides of everyday. Your struggle is real (not trying be all YAS HUNNI) but it's a real thing you are going through in life, so it matters how you choose to deal with it and grow from it. Realize that you're making a permanent decision on temporary feelings and no you do not get a second chance at life. You get one life and that's all you can make from it. So do something big and focus all your energy on your future and being successful and happy instead of focusing on the now. Give yourself something to look forward to and you'll be okay kid :)

*i have an ASK.fm for anyone who is interested in asking my anonymous questions or wanting me to help with their self-harm problems, I'm here for you! Link to it is on my page in the FIND ME HERE tabs*