Spring semester quickly approached and as mentioned..it came by a little too quick. Working 2 jobs over winter break left me no time or mentality to worry about anything school related. I was making bank for once in my life, I wasn't about to just stop my grind. (Lol) But seriously.. reality caught up to me and none of my classes I previously chosen were available. Leaving me to start back to plan B and re-register for all my classes again. When I finally thought I had everything all set and ready to go.. the day before class starts I get an email from the school saying the Financial Aid office fucked up and all my classes were cancelled. WTF RIGHT?! My mom and I went to the school a couple of days later, go to the financial aid office, explain the situation, they say okay we know the problem go to registration office so they can override it and take care of everything. Okay cool so no problem there, everything is going to be fine, according to Tricia. We go over to the registration office and this lady told us there's nothing she can do about it, that my only option is to re-register A-FUCKING-GAIN and or ask for the professor/chair of the department to let you in the class. I had enough of this lady and her fucking lies so I pulled my mom away from her and we called the financial aid office and told them what happened. No answer. (We couldn't go back to financial aid at the moment because we were far away from the building and I was already 30 mins late to work). Instead we went to visit the chairs and well it was quite interesting.
A little old lady with a faux suede jazzy looking hat, with a white turtleneck and what looked like a robot Psy around her neck. She was looking pretty sassy, let me tell you. She had an attitude to match her style, although at first she was annoyed because hundreds of people came to her with the same issue..once she saw the look of frustration and disappointment on my face she said, "I'm sorry hun, there's really nothing I can do but put you in night classes" (which I have no transportation to), "I wish I can help you, I really do, since you look so upset right now." At that point I was just done. I got so tired of dealing with school bullshit. So we just left. -1 hour late to work- I told my mom on the walk to the car that I was seriously over this school and that I can't do it anymore. She said, "I know Amb, let's see what happens."
-1 hour 30 mins late to work- Once I got to work everything just turned to shit. I was over thinking everything, getting frustrated about my life. And on top of that, I got a text that my mom went to the hospital. I was a "What More Could Go Wrong" kind of day. But I didn't say that because..you never know.
I go home after a rough day and had a serious talk with my mom. Telling her how I really don't think college is for me. I'm unhappy in college, but I feel like a disappointment to them for not going as far as my brother did. My brother is a Senior at Rutgers University and makes the Dean's List a lot. Look at me, didn't even finish my first year in college and I already want to leave. After talking with her, I felt so extremely relieved. She assured me that she wasn't disappointed and that I have to be happy. The outcome: I'd go to a trade school and study there instead since I am more of a hands on type of person.
Although I feel a little down about dropping out of college while everyone else is studying in school, I do feel happier that I am doing something for me and that I actually did stand up for it. If college isn't for you and you're more like me.. dont be afraid to talk to your parents about alternative options. Although you may not get a Bachelors, you can get a career fast and it's a hands on experience. Whatever you choose..Goodluck with it and make sure it makes you happy.
Love you all. xox
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