"Do You Ever Eat?!"

Falsely being called Anorexic

Growing up, I did a lot of sports so naturally when you're running around getting in shape, your metabolism becomes faster in digesting your food- basically meaning it's hard to gain weight. So I've heard the "get some meat on those bones!", "you look like a twig!", "you need to eat more!" lecture every time I'm faced with someone new or worse..my parents close to everyday of my life.

I admit there are days where I'm too stressed to even have an appetite to eat like lunch or something, but most of the days I eat breakfast, 2 small foods then dinner. So I do eat and A LOT..thank you very much! When I was younger I just ignored the comments because I was too young to understand fully what anorexia meant. They just said, "Do you ever eat, you're just skin and bones!" And being naive, I thought..well duh I eat, you're dumb. And I knew that when I got older, of course I would gain weight, so just kept on ignoring those comments that I heard from coaches, moms, and everyone that felt the need to tell me straight to my face.

Growing up and becoming a teenager, I honestly just laughed it off and didn't care much about it because I knew those people were being ridiculous and dramatic. I mean come on, they were strangers they couldn't possibly know about how much I ate. But it always hit a nerve because people actually had the balls to take an actual eating disorder and use the term against someone who actually very ENJOYS eating haha. Sure I could go to the gym and lift weights and eat protein to literally add more weight to the scale, but that was never really my style. I don't actually need to is what I mean, like I'm not at an unhealthy weight nor am I a skeleton so what's the problem?! Maybe in a few years I might see my current weight being an issue, but as of right now.. I'll stick to eating how much I want and enjoy not gaining tons of weight. 

Being almost 20 years old and being in an emotional state like I have recently been in, it's hard to have low self-esteem and be called anorexic especially by your own father who isn't home enough to know how many calories you're taking in during the day. I told my mother how I liked eating the sugar free syrup the other day and she said to me, "well you need the sugar because you're getting so skinny"..uhh wtf sugar isn't exactly a source of protein, it's actually unhealthy for you. Hence, why I break out so much..

So how do I deal with it? It sucks because people don't understand how hard it is for some active people to gain weight and they're so quick to think that I hate food or something. But I found it's easiest and happiest to simply ignore it or remove yourself from that situation and go somewhere/do something else. I know how much I eat and I don't need someone to judge and scold me by how much they think I eat. And I'll just go to my room and do something that I enjoy to do, like writing a new post for everyone to read. And that's how I think everyone who has a fast metabolism like I do, should react. Don't let it bother you, you're absolutely beautiful just the way you are. If you do have a fast metabolism and its a genuine problem to you however, then there are easy ways to fix it. Go on that gym flow and consume more protein as I mentioned earlier. You'll gain actual healthy muscle instead of "fat" like everyone thinks they wants you to gain. 

Sure you can see my spine and hip bones and feel my ribs, not to mention my "thigh gap" isn't even a gap..it's more of a gaping hole where my knees don't even touch, but that's how my body is and I don't hate my body one bit. And that's what everyone has to realize about themselves, you have to learn how to understand your own body and embrace it. You're going to live a much healthier life by worrying about your own opinions about yourself and not how others perceive you. You are beautiful just the way you were created, but your true beauty shines when you learn to accept yourself and radiate happiness from it!

Disclaimer: I'm in no way shape or form condoning anorexia, because it isn't something anybody should use lightly. I'm just saying that if people are falsely accusing you of being something you know you're not simply because it legitimately doesn't make sense, then carry on with your life and make yourself happy.